by Dennis Abrams
I’ve been thinking back to one of my first posts, listing the ten reasons why people should join in the reading of reading Proust. In it I quoted Virginia Woolf’s famous line, “My great adventure is really Proust. Well — what remains to be written after that?” In reading Alain de Botton’s How Proust Can Change Your Life,” I read about the danger that such feelings had for Woolf.
“Reading Proust nearly silenced Virginia Woolf. She loved his novel, but loved it rather too much. There wasn’t enough wrong with it, a crushing recognition when one follows Walter Benjamin in his assessment of why people become writers: because they are unable to find a book already written which they are completely happy with. And the difficulty for Virginia was, for a time at least, she thought she had found one.
Virginia Woolf first mentioned Proust in a letter she wrote to Roger Fry in the autumn of 1919. He was in France, she was in Richmond, where the weather was foggy and the garden in bad shape, and she casually asked him whether he might bring back a copy of Swann’s Way on his return.
It was 1922 before she next mentioned Proust . She had turned forty and, despite the entreaty to Fry, still hadn’t read anything of Proust’s work, though in a letter to E.M. Forster, she revealed that others in the vicinity were being more diligent. ‘Everyone is reading Proust. I sit silent and hear their reports. It seems to be a tremendous experience,’ she explained, though appeared to be procrastinating out of a fear of being overwhelmed by something in the novel, an object she referred to more as if it were a swamp than hundreds of bits of paper stuck together with thread and glue; ‘I’m shivering on the brink, and waiting to be submerged with a horrid sort of notion that I shall go down and down and down and perhaps never come up again.’
She took the plunge nevertheless, and the problems started. As she told Roger Fry, ‘Proust so titillates my own desire for expression that I can hardly set out the sentence. ‘Oh, if I could write like that!’ I cry. And at the moment such is the astonishing vibration and saturation that he procures — there’s something sexual in it — that I feel I can write like that, and write seize my pen, and then I can’t write like that.’
In what sounded like a celebration of In Search of Lost Time, but was in fact a far darker verdict on her future as a writer, she told Fry: ‘My great adventure is really Proust. Well — what remains to be written after that?…How, at least, has someone solidified what has always escaped — and made it too into this beautiful and perfectly enduring substance? One has to put the book down and gasp.’
In spite of the gasping, Woolf realized that Mrs Dalloway still remained to be written, after which she allowed herself a brief burst of elation at the thought that she might have produced something decent. ‘I wonder if this time I have achieved something?’ she asked herself in her diary, but the pleasure was short-lived: ‘Well, nothing anyhow compared with Proust, in whom I am embedded now. the thing about Proust is his combination of the utmost sensibility with the utmost tenacity. He searches out these butterfly shades to the last grain. He is as tough as catgut and as evanescent as a butterfly’s bloom. And he will I suppose both influence me and make me out of temper with every sentence of my own.’
But Woolf knew how to hate her sentences well enough even without Proust’s assistance. ‘So sick of Orlando I can write nothing,’ she told her diary shortly after completing this book in 1928. ‘I have corrected the proofs in a week: and cannot spin another phrase. I detest my own volubility. Why be always spouting words?’
However, any bad mood she was in was liable to take a dramatic plunge for the worse after the briefest contact with the Frenchman. The diary entry continued: ‘Take up Proust after dinner and put him down. This is the worst time of all. It makes me suicidal. Nothing seems left to do. All seems insipid and worthless.’
Nevertheless, she didn’t yet commit suicide, though she did take the wise step of ceasing to read Proust, and was therefore able to write a few more books whose sentences were neither insipid nor worthless. Then in 1934, when she was working on T he Years, there was a sign that she had at last freed herself from Proust’s shadow. She told Ethel Smyth that she had picked up In Search of Lost Time again, ‘which is of course so magnificent that I can’t writ e myself within its arc. For years I’ve put off finishing it; but now, thinking I may die one of these years, I’ve returned, and let my own scribble do what it likes. Lord, what a hopeless bad book mine will be!’
The tone suggests that Woolf had at last made her peace with Proust. He could have his terrain, she had hers to scribble in. The path from depression and self-loathing to cheerful defiance suggests a gradual recognition that one person’s achievements did not have to invalidate another’s, that there would always be something left to do even if it momentarily appeared otherwise. Proust might have expressed many things well, but independent thought and the history of the novel had not come to a halt with him. His book did not have to be followed by silence, there was still space for the scribbling of others, for Mrs Dalloway, The Common Reader, A Room of One’s Own, and in particular there was space for what these books symbolized in this context, perceptions of one’s own.
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More to come…
This sums up the reader’s crisis as well after having read Proust. I say with some trepidation given our next adventure as a group that reading Crime and Punishment this year (which I have read many times) was a shock at first. The prose felt completely dead and something I’ve regarded as a masterpiece felt terribly flat. I got over it. But it’s not Proust. And I fear that “But it’s not Proust” will be a pretty constant refrain after nearly everything I read.
Nope, it’s not Proust. But what is?
On the other hand, it’s far enough away from Proust and his world and his style and his everything that it seemed to me it would definitely work — you can’t compare them, they’re just too different.
Sold! Thanks for helping get me unstuck from Proust. I’m sure one of the roles you’ll be playing is coaxing us all through this transition to another author. There are enough references to Dostoevsky in ISOLT, however, to make it of considerable comfort to know that Proust read him, too.
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I’ve read Marcel Proust’s novel three times, and don’t believe a better novel will ever be written. What remains to be written, however, is a great short novel, play, screenplay, childrens’ book, graphic novel, or whatever that has the humor, wisdom, depth and authenticity of Proust’s masterpiece.
My mental health is not the best.. Concentration is a struggle. But I persisted with Swann’s way (still unfinished) carefully and slowly. There is no one else who writes like him. His command of language is god-like for the way he creates a thought, grasps it in his hand and holds it in the thin air of our imagination to view and ponder on. A miracle which he performs again and again with ease.
It is indeed a recipe for depression to compare oneself to Proust, but there is comfort in knowing that his genius was a response to an incarceration of the soul caused by ill health. Trapped in the body, his world became the page.
Proust is like a dream. The epitome of human expression.